Free

Connection,

Disconnection,

Soul seeking,

Longing to be known,

Desperate to be at peace,

Losing sight of the bigger picture

All I see is me
With occasional glimpses

Of God.

Losing sight of my role

In the bigger picture of my identity,

Needing to zoom out

And admire the panorama,

Delight myself in the view,

See the earth from the air,

Flying, soaring

On the wings I've been given.

I realise that I feel

Insignificant

And wonder if I can make

A difference.

But it's a chain reaction

A ripple

And starts with one person

And the bigger picture of

Humanity.

One act of kindness

One smile

The little things still do

Have great value.

Encouragement

Service

Patience.

Pay it forward.

Don't expect anything

In return.

It has to be free of charge.

I still live in a debt mentality

Part of me wants things repaid

But maybe it's not that.

I want my needs met

And I need to be loved.

What is it to surrender?

To let go of the reins

And really LIVE?

To live in such trust

That hands can be thrown

In the air

And life can be about

Fulness

Extravagance

Excellence

Freedom?

Not taking advantage

But living love.

Doing the nitty gritty.

Making peace.

Living in forgiveness.

Letting go...

That's one of the things

I find hardest -

Letting go of hurts.

Don't know why

Don't know how to change

But there's a freedom in that act...